I Can't Go Back!

I was reading the Discerning Dom's post today, which solidified the thoughts that have been floating in and out of my mind these last few weeks.

Sex with my ex-boyfriend was generally good. He was my ANR partner and he is the one who introduced me to that incredible lifestyle. That part of US was very beautiful and satisfying. What I didn't love so much was how we related sexually. Oh yes, it felt good...he feels good. He is beautiful and strong. But at several separate encounters he asked:

"Is this okay?"

"Are you okay?"

"Am I hurting you?"

!@#$% OMG! If I said it once, I said it one thousand times quit asking me and just do it! Just fuck me already!!

Alright, alright I didn't say THAT but I sure thought it.

At one point, while not having sex I told the ex-boyfriend, “please stop worrying about if something hurts or feels good. If I am uncomfortable or don't like it, I will tell you.”

But gosh darn if he didn't do it again. That just ruined it! No orgasm, I wasn't even into the sex anymore.

After being with a Dominant man, I now know I can never go back. Back to someone who isn't sure of what I enjoy... Who isn't confident enough to take what he wants. Who after 3 years, numerous encounters, and direct pleading from me cannot understand what a disruption and turnoff it is to be asked, in the middle of sex, “Is this alright, can I do this?”

This submissive will not suffer a timid man.

-H